what to do with myself...

So I have no idea what to do with myself now that my friend Michelle and her daughter, Chloe, are back in South Carolina, and not here at my house. It really sucks that I only get to see them like twice a year. It really sucks, because I can talk to her so much easier then I can talk to my other friends, because she has gone through a lot of the same stuff as me...

So I bawled my eyes out when I said good-bye to her and Chloe. The lady that was checking her bag and everything gave us a gate pass so we can bring her through and help her get settled... which means I had to go through security and get my bag scanned and the whole time it's going through the x-ray thing I'm thinking I hope I don't have anything in there I'm not suppose to have...

I don't even know what to say now, I'm just really sad that she is gone... but I know I will be visiting her in January so that's 6 months away...

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dftba

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Ok... so I left a comment on italktosnakes blog and I just found it funny... so i guess I'm saying, yes I made myself laugh. So i thought I'd share it... you'd have to go to her blog to understand my meaning to this... it's her sweater vest one.

"I wish I had kept a journal ever since I was in second grade... It would have been nice to look back on my life from however I saw it at the time. I used to always TRY to keep a journal, but after about a week I'd forget about it and it's just be another book on my shelf. Then a year or so later I'd go looking through my stuff and find the journal and start writing in it again, ect. I guess in my life I don't collect journals... I collect shoes.

dftba"

I guess I'll tell the world wide web how my day was...

I got up this morning and went to Babie's R Us (where I used to work last summer) and got some things for Chloe (lets just say she is my neice even though she isn't) for when she comes up with her Mom (twinnie), Michelle, to visit me and everything. So I went there picked out a few things for her, spent more then I wanted too, saw some old employee's and didn't talk to them, and bought some really cute things. So one of the things that I bought was this INSANELY adorable shirt that had little pink peace signs all over it. It was so adorable, I bought it... and I got some pink shorts to go with it. =]

After Babie's R Us, I went to my mom's job (myparent own there own business) and showed her everything I bought. She thinks I should take back the stroller toys... but I don't know if I will, however, I might.

Then I came home and I've done absolutley nothing remotely of interest to anyone, including myself. I've just been bored out of my mind since I came home from my little shopping trip.

One thing I did was go to watch yesterday's episode of True Blood to find out there was no episode yesterday for True Blood... but something I did find out is they have all 3 seasons on showtime to watch of Dexter. Now, I've seen all of season 1, but I haven't seen any of the others. So that's what I just started to do was catch up on Dexter.

Nothing really interesting I guess.

Oh, I know something semi interesting to only me and the people involved in it... I'm going to the beach tomorrow. =D I am way excited and completely nervous. Now you have to know I am a nervous passenger and driver... so I hate vechiles and transporting myself from one place to another... but yet I do it, I'm not a hermit or anything... but I just have this HUGE fear of cars and driving long distances. So, tomorrow I came up with the brillant plan that I'm oing to drive, and now though I think I'm ready, I am incredibly nervous. Though, thankfully, there will be 3 other expierenced drivers in the car with me, 1 of which I would trust driving my car if I was going to have a panic attack or whatever. So the beach we are going to is about 2 and a half hours away from where I live... well any beach "close" by is about 2 hours away, however, the one we want to go to is a little farther, because it's cheaper. I mean hey, we are college students, we don't have a lot of money to spend on things.

So I mentioned before that Chloe was coming up with her mom, Michelle. Well I am incrediably excited about this. I haven't seen them since January and I cannot wait to see them. Chloe will be turning 1 on the 25th of this month and I'm just so excited. Michelle and I are really good friends. Actually we met on the internet believe it or not. She was into writing Harry Potter fanfiction and I was into reading it. So I happen to come across one of her stories and I commented on it, and for whatever reason that I can't remember we have been talking ever since. Now this doesn't mean meet everyone you meet on the internet, because that just is not completely safe, but yeah. They are flying in on thursday and they are staying for a week. I am SOOOOOOOO excited that I cannot contain my excitment. All I ever do is talk about it or think about it. I just want thursday to be here already! Oh well... I'll just have to wait.

Oh, and while Michelle and Chloe are here we are going to the city, because she's never been there, and we are going to go to a Titanic exibit! TITIANIC! Now if you don't remember anything about em at all it is that I LOVE anything and everything to do about the Titanic. I mean not just about the movie, that just started my obsession, I mean everything there is to know about the actual Titanic. So going to a place where there are things FROM the Titanic, makes me unbelievably happy it is not even funny.

Ok, I just realized how long this entry is so I'm going to stop my rambling before I go on and on and on...

dftba

Wow...

So it's been a while since I last updated this blog. Honestly, I forgot about it. I think I am going to try my hardest to write more.

So a lot has changed since my last update. My last update was done at the end of my first semester in college at SUNY Orange. I will be starting my fourth semester this coming fall. You may ask "Why is she only starting her fourth semester and not fifth?" that is because during my second semester of college, I fell sick (again) and had to withdrawl from all my classes. So instead of graduating in two years... it is taking me five semesters (two and a half years), but I just call it three.

I've also changed my major countless times. Well I'm a college student, I think that is expected of me. It went from Photography, Dental Hygenie, Meteorology, and now finally I have settled on Mass Communications with a consentration on film production.

I now work at Red Lobster as a host... and if you don't know what Red Lobster is... it's just a seafood resturant. It's kind of funny that I work there, because I don't really like seafood. Oh well... I actually love the job. It may seem like I hate it at times, but I honestly do love it. It's the first job where I have felt like I wasn't completely stressed all the time, I can talk to the co workers, I can relate/get along with my "crew members".

All in all, life is pretty good.

dftba

FINALLY!

I finally got my project done for photography... I got a B+ on it. I am really happy with my grade considering some of the prints didn't come out right. About 4 of them were really grey and there was nothing I could do about it.

That's all... bye.

Sick.

I have been really sick. I am still not better and yeah. Hopefully I will get better soon, but if it's anything like the end of my senior year... it may take a while and that worries me.

I wish I got more sleep last night.

Bored.

So I am sitting in the Photo Lab in SUNY Orange... (that makes me giggle) and I am way bored. I should be working on my Portfolio project but I really don't feel like it at this moment. I have the film developed. But I just don't feel like printing any pictures. Probably because they aren't good negatives... so that involves filters... bleh.

So it's been like 10 minutes since I wrote that. I just realized that the rough draft for the research paper I have to do for English isn't due until NEXT week. It's the outline that is due today. I am SOOOO relieved. Like I was so worried, because I was not ready to write the rough draft yet. This makes me happy, because that means I won't have to miss Heroes tonight. I can't miss an episode. That would be HORRIBLE! Hmmm... I should probably start my outline for my research paper, but I really don't want too.

Oh well. I'll figure out something to do. I only have 45 minutes left here... then I get to go home. =]

<3J

Bleh.

Today was stressful and I am glad it is over.

So there was 3 car accidents yesterday... I feel like we are doomed... =[

Good new though. There is this event thing that the president of SUNY Orange (lol) does every year. Two students out of the photography classes get to be picked to photograph the event, I was one of them. I am just WAY nervous. One I have to use my 35mm aka FILM (ah) and it has to be color, PLUS it is indoors and it's poor lighting at the place it's held, I know, I have been there before. So that results in using a flash. I am not good with flashes... I am going to do a practice roll this weekend in poorly lit areas. But THANK goodness, I do not have to develop the film =D

I got a B+ on my midterm paper... thing for photography. I had to write a paper on a photographer that was chosen for me (not cool), but I ended up getting Man Ray... which I was happy about.

My room is a mess and I HATE that. It has been SO messy lately, because I have been so busy and in a rush for everything. Plus, I have so much laundry to do and I have to do it tomorrow. The washer and dryer are probably already going to be taken by the time I get up... it normally always is when i wake up on a Saturday morning. I really need to do my laundry though... I need clean clothes for Sunday so I will have something to pick from when I go to the concert (that I am WAY excited about) on Sunday.

I have done enough rambling for today. I guess I'll read my book and hopefully fall asleep within the next 3 hours.

<3j